Duration: 7:30min

Film Synopsis:
I see me watching speculates on the journey to and struggle with finding identity by presenting a first-person depiction of a singular self that has been split into two. The film displays the character's ever-changing emotions as they follow an anonymous figure through unfamiliar surroundings, and gain awareness of the figure as an integral part of their being.

Artist Statement:
A prominent experience in my life over the past couple of years has been my personal struggle with gender identity. I felt a strong calling to make this film as a way to look at my relationship with my identity from an external point of view. I was inspired to emulate this same journey in my film through the relationship the two characters had with each other. By immersing the viewers in the point of view of the film, and presenting the metaphoric emotions of the character, I aim to create a dynamic that allows for experiential embodiment and diverse connection.

Filmmaker’s Biography:
Sidney Gordon (b. 2000) is a queer, non-binary, multimedia emulsion-based artist born and raised on Treaty 4 territory. They are now residing on unceded Coast Salish territories, where they recently completed their BMA in Film + Screen Arts at Emily Carr University of Art + Design. Sidney’s practice predominantly focuses on experimental analog filmmaking and alternative photography, expanding into media-based performance and installation. Their film has been screened by invitation in Zumzieg Cinema’s curated program BLITZ #37 (Barcelona ES), and their recent photographic series was featured in Capture Photography Festival 2022.

Film Credits:
Directed/Produced: Sidney Gordon
Cinematography: Emil Vargas
Cam OPs: Sidney Gordon, Emil Vargas
1st AD: Lauren Olson
2nd AD: Kaïa Barth-Lessard
1st AC: Warren Tang
Grips: Pablo Garcia Garcia, Liao Yi
Spotter: Kaïa Barth-Lessard
Actor: Taliesin Mason-McCrea
Composer: Aysha Dulong
Costume: Tillie Roy
Colorist: Nina Wolf
Stills Photographers: Vanessa Denham, Enid Huang